Saturday, January 22, 2011

Reflecting Back on 2010


I have been home now for some time:  visited the family and some friends in Ontario over Christmas and New Year; printed and mailed close to 1,000 photographs back to the girls at St. Ann’s and the students.  I’m recognizing the flakes flying through the air as snow and not ash from the cane fields, and I’ve begun to tolerate cooking with chicken and rice.   I take some time “pondering” my life, contribution, experience and frustrations of volunteering at Mercy and Guyana.   It sets the stage for me to decide about doing it one more time in 2011.  

Those of you who have been with me in the previous seven times will have found, like me, that much of what happened in Guyana happened almost all the other years.  There is some comforting familiarity with repetition of both successes and frustrations.    My time in Guyana has become part of the rhythm of my retirement.   My ever-helpful wife, Anne, just passed and commented, “You know, people who think that you go to Guyana for three months are wrong.  You are actually there at least half the year.”  Probably true.

This year I had some new experiences:

The most different and exciting development was the introduction of a problem-based learning approach to the first year students at the Mercy Hospital School of Nursing.    This was made possible by my esteemed colleague, Tony.   To tell you the truth, before we left I couldn’t decide whether I was more worried about introducing PBL or working with Tony.   However, neither worry ever came to fruition.   Tony and I worked extremely well together.   [The students would listen to one of us and then immediately look to the other for a dissenting opinion.]  I know that I could not have achieved the same richness, depth and comprehensiveness without him.   We had some interesting skirmishes, but no one drew blood or got a knockdown.  We were amazingly compatible on our learning objectives and assessments of the day’s work.    I hate to admit this but it would be hard for me to go back without him.   I think that this “odd couple” did a good job.   

Our students had been educated through high school with the main pedagogical intervention being a teacher [or often another student because the teacher wasn’t there] reading from the one textbook for the course and the students writing down verbatim what the teacher re-read slowly.    They are criticized for wrong answers; they are not looked-to for opinions or previous knowledge; they sit and write.   So the introduction of an adult and PBL approach was going to be risky.  However, it was risky only in our minds.   They jumped on it, right from our introductory problem, in which we decided to “do” a case rather than talk about the differences of PBL.   We played with a “Contract Pregnancy” one, in which some rich couple wanted to pay for their schooling in exchange for the conception of a light-skinned girl for them.  Some genetics, some anatomy, some ethics, some psychology, a little of everything.  They had so many questions and problems and ideas and quandaries, it was wonderful.  They wanted to learn and were eager to read, to get resources on the net, to find local consultants on staff to bother with their questions…   
   
This made leaving harder this year, as there were no faculty that seemed to have even the tiniest interest in our project.   The students would return from our classes to the tutor reading from a lone text, pouring in the truth via their sitting butts and their writing hands, through some unknown neuro pathway to their awaiting memory receptors…   Ugh.   Our inability to get any interest in PBL from others was a major failure and disappointment of this tour.   It didn’t outweigh the positive student reactions, though it did interfere with our fantasies of leaving an enduring legacy.    It was my biggest disappointment.

Speaking of disappointments, another big one was with my country, Canada.   Some anonymous visa official who was probably overworked and probably had been watching bad detective movies for too long and probably liked reading even less than my students, refused a short visa for my friend, Taju.  He wanted to attend an ice-cream-making course at University of Guelph in Ontario.  [He had paid the tuition and the airfare; a friend of Anne’s was putting him up in his home near the university; someone else was picking him up at the airport and was going to return him after a trip to Niagara Falls.]   Well, he was rejected basically because the reviewer could not see any connection between ice cream and Taju’s previous life as a student nurse.   Therefore, they “had no choice” but to refuse the request because Taju might not return to Guyana – to his wife, two kids, his own restaurant, internet store, home, truck and car, his plans to finish his degree in Nursing and improve his ice-cream-making business.    [An email from Taju in January read in part:

“....... I've signed a contract with the Government Of Guyana through GOINVEST Guyana that will give us duty free concessions to bring in Ice Cream equipment and vehicles based on the business proposal that I submitted to them.  Hopefully that will keep some dollars in our pocket when the operation eventually commences.   The struggle continues. ....”    ]
 
It is too bad that the reviewer did not read the documentation submitted, including a supporting letter from Tony and myself.   The officer did not even ask for clarification or make a long distance phone call.  [There are no visa services in Guyana; all visa requests are sent to Trinidad.].    

I was upset with the refusal, but much more upset with the fact that it is impossible to appeal a decision.   I have recently received an official letter from the Minister responsible, Jason Kenny, who just reiterated the words of the original reviewer.   To say the least – not helpful.     It is way too late for Taju to attend the course, but it is not too late for others to be treated with respect when applying to visit Canada.    This process is surely not the “Canadian way”.

As with professional articles, authors must declare benefits received that might influence their decision.   Therefore, I declare that Tony and I are recipients of Free Ice Cream for Life at the Princess Restaurant on Durban Street in Georgetown.  Taju and his wife Alison are the owners.

My other “new” was living away from the Mercy Compound and occupying the parsonage at Calvary Lutheran Church on the outskirts of the Bourda Market.   It wasn’t until the end of my time that I realized that the congregation at Calvary were my biggest financial supporters in that they gifted me with the lodging.   I did reimburse them by providing “security” and also delivering two sermons ..…  I think I easily got the best part of that deal.   Of course, there are many others who support me in various ways; it is just that Calvary’s support seemed pretty amazing.  [Living “off campus” had some small drawbacks, in that I had to provide more of my own meals and there was commuting time involved.]
 
My next other “new” was the realization that everything changes ..…  Yes, I knew that before and remembered it again as my colleague, Pastor Dick Young, announced that he would be leaving before I might return in 2011.   He has always been there for me since I started going to Guyana.   He has been an inspiration to me, especially as I struggled with the frustrations of doing anything in Guyana.     He has arrived back home at his farm in Oregon where the growing season will be a little shorter.     I’ll wait till next year -- until he misses Guyana -- to see if he wants to come and join us at Mercy!

My last “new” probably wasn’t really new to anyone but me; however, I did seem to notice a much larger number of old students who were still in Guyana.   This was pure joy for me as I have given my “Think About Staying In Guyana” speech every year.     I would like to think that some of them actually listened to me.   Maybe, it also has to do with a degree programme in nursing at the University of Guyana and a few better opportunities for employment, like the Caribbean Heart Institute.    Their working presence, along with the establishing of families, was one of the most encouraging aspects of my time there.    These are bright women [and a few guys] and as they gather experience they will increase the competency of nursing everywhere in Guyana’s health system. 

My biggest worry was and is about the future of St. Joseph Mercy Hospital.   The fire has had an ongoing impact in almost every area of operations.    For the first time in their history they laid off “family”; the level of acute patient cases has decreased and the majority are chronic; staff optimism is pretty low; the new graduates were told that none of them were to be hired at Mercy; the redevelopment hasn’t begun, so the emptiness is there every day…  When I combine all this with several other “up and coming” hospitals and health services – with better pay and working conditions for nurses -- it is hard to feel optimistic.  I do know that CEO Helen and the Board are working hard to improve the hospital and get the rebuilding under way and I am still worried.    What does provide a never-ending source of optimism is the energy and dedication of the “old girls,”  Sisters Kenneth, Judith, and Noel, who are out there every day trying to raise funds for the new hospital; they continue to amaze me.

Speaking of amazing women, this was probably my last time to see Sister Beatrice Fernandes, although .....  I didn’t think she would have lived till I arrived in September 2010, and she was still alive when I left.     So who knows with these old nuns, eh?

I have been attacking this last blog for a month, and will now call it quits.

Take care, and I’ll write again when my plan for Fall 2011 is decided,

John

Sunday, November 28, 2010

This is late, I must be getting Guyanese...

Problem Based Leaving

I am [was is now the right word!] in the midst of packing – or rather the packing in in the midst of me!   I threw out tons of old papers and somehow, I think that I have one more box to leave…if or when I come back.  Anyhow, it seemed that every lousy piece of paper had a memory attached to it and almost all enjoyable… but it has slowed me down some.


Tony and I finished our last PBL class with the First Year students in style on Wednesday:  Ms. Helen Browman, CEO at Mercy and Dr. Claudette Harry observed and participated with the students.    At the end of the session, they were supporters of our attempts to re-introduce it.   So on the last class of the last paper page, Tony and I got some support.  It sure was a long time coming… and it did provide some energy to even think that it might survive.

[And who is Harry?  Well, she was the first Dean of the Medical School at University of Guyana in the ‘70’s and she had developed a whole curriculum of PBL for the medical students.  However, after she went to PAHO, the PBL approach disappeared.   Tony and I actually took them both out to dinner to learn from her experience and maybe how she might have done it differently.]

Thursday was a day to hand out the grades and chat with each of the students individually about their performance and grade.   They all to a “T” said that they could/should have worked harder, as if that provided some sort of absolution or talisman against the negative comment of the teachers.    We had very few negative comments and none that don’t usually make the top ten lists of every teacher’s feedback.  We have been impressed with the students – participation, enthusiasm and work rate.

It is at the end, when I know more clearly why I come here.  It is to see how much the students have learned and how much they have grown up.   I think that I have always gotten off on helping others grow into themselves.  

Our final session, after the marks were handed in, was a general evaluation of the programme and its specifics.   Their responses were positive and all welcomed the chance to work rather than listen to a "talking head" read from a text.  And as usual, after there were no more assignments, they said that the homework wasn’t that tough and could have been more difficult.   When I was a novice, I had this cognitive dissonance as all throughout the year they complained about homework and now…  As an old guy, I believe their non-confession is a ploy to have us really, really stick it to the next group of first year students!    I usually tell them that their comments were really helpful as Tony and I were going to be teaching them again in their second year.


We were also surprised as they hosted a farewell party and tribute to us over the lunch hour.  We sang some songs and there were a few speeches about our wonderfulness.  As well, we received a lovely plaque with a thanks and a picture of themselves on it.  I did feel that we made a difference in their lives and nursing career.

Lots of Goodbyes
Every week one of the girls takes a picture of this one on the wall at St. Ann's
 I visited Sister Beatrice for my last time this trip - and maybe ever.  She has developed pneumonia and was somewhat dehydrated, so they brought her into Mercy Hospital.   I knew this because as I was going upstairs to visit her at the convent an older Sister came rushing towards me, walker and all, to tell me that she was where I had just left!   Anyhow, we did chat and I told her of all the people that I knew who were praying for her and that I was grateful for having known her and goodbye.

That day I also thought that I was saying goodbye to my girls at St. Ann’s.  I am still not sure whether they will miss my camera or me more.   I have come to know many of them over the years.   Lucy proudly told me that she was now halfway through her dog first aid book and there is nothing on red-eye in dogs.   Keep reading I told her.   They do all come to see me and ask – “Can I borrow the camera?”  “I didn’t have it last week.”  “I’m next, right?”   I have just learned to sit loose and the only time I look for my camera is when I am ready to leave.   And almost all the pictures of the girls are ones they have taken by themselves.   I now have to go through them and select two of each of them and get them printed and shipped back to them from Canada.   Some of the older girls have 50-60 pictures and always want me to print all of them!   Some new ones are in the slide show at top .....
Mary Peter - one of my favourite girls at St. Ann's
It is good to be part of their growing.  Two will go on to the University of Guyana… Amazing!  And others have been apprenticing in a trade and learning how to manage a job…  I am optimistic about most of their futures. 

Good Bye Again…

I was invited to the 475th Anniversary of the Ursuline Sisters and how could one refuse an invitation like that --  besides, "my girls" were going to be dancing during the Mass… and could I take some pictures?     And Sylvia wanted to take Tony and me out to dinner and she was going to the Mass.  [Tony was giving his last piano lesson.]   The Ursuline Order was dedicated to taking care of girls and women, so priests did all the talking about the good work of the Sisters by quoting from bishops… and no one saw the unfortunate irony.  Maybe by their 500th anniversay a woman might get to reflect on her life as an Ursuline?




Most of the St. Ann’s Girls were corralled up in the balcony; however, the dancing girls were downstairs. During the offering they waltzed down the aisle; they were excellent - disciplined, co-ordinated and seemingly enjoying the whole dance.  One might have mistaken them for perfect angels.   Whoever taught them had a lot of patience, and talent too.    They were even given a warm round of applause.    They were all so glad to see me as they had their best dresses on.  As well, they asked if they could borrow my camera!

Goodbye Sylvia 

Sylvia is the Scarborough Fathers volunteer who is down for three years – ugh.  So she will probably still be here if and when we get back.   For some reason Tony and I seemed to have adopted her… and I was secretly trying to convert her to Lutheranism.. . as she heard me preach several times and then just last Sunday went up river to Mt. Zion at Sand Hills.    It is in an isolated part of the west bank and accessible by boat.  I call it the jungle though the people there say, “Pastor, dis nah no jungle.”   Sunday was Harvest Home and after a longish service they had a meal for everyone; and then we had to wait for the torrential rain to slow down to normal rain before we left in an overloaded speedboat with no jackets.   And then after dropping off a half dozen people in the church van, we got a flat tire at night on the Timheri Road.   Dick coast it to underneath a street lamp and after a few anxious minutes discovered the jack in an unusual place.  It was a good thing that Dick had done it before ..…  
Everyone pitched in.. I got the spare loosened from a coat-hanger improvised holder; Sylvia held the nuts and bolts ..… and we were back on the road ..… somewhat later than expected but safe.

Goodbye Dick – kind of…


I forgot to mention that Dick was not feeling well and had no voice really at the 9AM service at Calvary and by the time he was done at Sand Hill, he was beat… See the evidence.   And the flat was almost the last straw… He has way too much patience for the “last” straw.     He dropped us at his home as he just wanted to crash… and Sylvia and I would get a taxi.  I did sneak in a good bye; he isn’t real keen on goodbyes… but it will be against the odds that our paths will cross in the future.   So it was a true goodbye to my Pastor friend.



Good Bye to the Rest…

It was like the children’s book, Goodnight Moon.  Good bye all the Sisters of Mercy – Judith, Noel, Kenneth, Catherine…  And Good bye St. Ann’s Brenda, Barbara, Mary Peter…  Good bye all my graduates –Yolanda, Bhola, Taju, Ashiana, Annessia, Sabrena, and many more…  Good Bye staff at Mercy – Helen, Juanita, Laurelle, Jenny, Claudia and all the others…  Good Bye all those who have enriched my life these last three months Good Bye   Guyana!

Hello Anne and all my family – Sue, Emily, The Iz, Sara, Rod, Shilo, Christine, Evan, Jennifer, Kristin, Mike, Sydney, John Aaron, Amber, Sienna and Aidan..

Hello all my friends.   Hope to see you all soon… or more likely a closer email!

I thought that I would have had a much more reflective ending to this year.  However, I am just thinking of getting out and home.  Maybe I’ll try and write one later…   Yes, I know it says that I send them only when I am in Guyana, but what preacher would be worth his salt if he always did what he said?  

I am now in Florida...

So… “Help, Save, Comfort and Defend us O God.”  Till we meet again… John